A bonus with this is that I’ve been struggling to eat for a bit, but HRT seems to be making me hungrier, so I’ll actually eat dinner now. I also need to anyway, because of this.

TLDR: You might want to consider doing some research, based on your current situation. E.g. if you’re on gel, see if injections might help. Also, blood work–don’t skip it! Personally, I’ve likely undergone such a drastic change due to the fact that being a psychonaut has made me significantly more perceptive and insightful.

You’ve made sure your hormone levels are actually at expected levels? It could be that your testosterone isn’t being suppressed. The only real way to be sure is a blood test. If levels are normal, it might just be taking its time. If not, you might want to try a different HRT solution.

I don’t know what you’re using, but if it’s injections, something’s up. Injections are highly reliable. If you’re not on a blocker, you might need one. Really picky stuff, HRT is.

As for me, though, I’ve got a bit of an unusual life situation which might explain the rapid, somewhat drastic psychological change.

I take a 2mg transdermal spray twice daily, with 50mg of bicalutamide. A noticeable bud developed within 2 weeks. This is normal. Mild euphoria is also present sometimes, which is also normal.

That’s not where it ends, though, and this is where my unusual life situation comes into play.

I am what is called a psychonaut. I use drugs for many reasons, including recreationally, but not out of desperation to feel better. I haven’t been truly depressed in a long time. It’s really just a fun thing to pass time–only a hobby, or something deeper, on occasion. I see it as a means of exploring the self, be it in the form of understanding my own thoughts, experiencing new tactile sensations, or seeing things that can’t be imagined. Every factor of existence, itself, as an art. Not only that, but I have an inherent desire to understand how the human body works.

It’s pretty self explanatory why this matters.

THC is the only substance I’ve used frequently since starting HRT. It seems to be amplifying the subtle changes happening to me chemically–it’s a megaphone. Makes sense, as it’s described as somewhat psychedelic. THC has started to become a significantly more euphoric experience in terms of thought and physicality. I’ve started to experience prominent phantom limbs in the form of boobs, which is new to me. I find myself reaching for them, feeling for them, and it feels euphoric to do so. I also try to feel them while sober. Besides feeling natural to do, I’ve also been told this is a way the body registers change. So, THC has gone from something that I use just for a boost, to providing deeper insight to my being–directly tying in to my HRT experience.

Like a microscope that looks in.

I’ve probably had such a night and day difference because I’ve been trained to understand myself as much as possible. Like I said, unusual. Still, my baseline just feels different, like a bunch of connections starting to develop, to allow me to experience more emotion and physical sensation. This isn’t unique to stoners. If this isn’t at least mildly present after 2+ months, something unusual might be happening. I wouldn’t say it’s necessarily a sign of ineffectiveness, but I’d still look into it.

But that’s it. Transdermal estradiol, and bicalutamide. I have no secrets. Sometimes, things that work in some people, don’t work in others. Spray could even end up ineffective for me, despite working at present (this is a reason why blood tests are so important). I just try to get as much accurate information and advice as possible, and go from there. HRT is a lot of patience, and a lot of determination.

Ending note: Being a psychonaut has made HRT remarkably easy to grasp. Isn’t being autistic great?

I was 3 months in before I realized something was definitely happening in that department. I started suddenly noticing every time I accidentally bumped the area with my arm etc. and the skin started feeling different.

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