For hiking boots, I cannot recommend Hanwag enough. I’ve had their Alaska model for years and I’m very happy with them.

Maybe force of habit?

You could do your bachelor’s in the EU. In that case, I believe the easiest way is by searching for universities that offer studies in english. The university I work at offers a master’s in computer science in English but the bachelor’s is in German. Most international universities also have offices that can help you with organizing your stay and visa.

It’s not a bad thing to get help from a therapist.

You can try to get your hands on an old Steam Link. There seem to be plenty cheap ones on Ebay.

Auf jeden Fall. Aber bin dran vorbeigegangen und musste reflexartig ausatmen…

I agree with the recommendation for therapy. I can say that it helped me to get in a more positive and constructive mind set.

Other thoughts on your lack of intimacy:

Getting a pet can give some kind of replacement for intimacy with another human being. Sure, it is not the same. But cuddling with a cat can help to feel less lonely.

For intimicy as in “sex”, I think there is nothing wrong with considering sex workers. Unless of course it is illegal in your country…

I did my Duolingo lesson for the glory of the empire!

Also seems to be down for me.