ich kam hierher für dies

i feel that so much! <3

i had a very unspecific depression over years (am in my 30s now). i had took some interrest in genderbending stuff, but never had the thought, positively, that i wanted to be a girl. i liked it that my beard didnt really grow until my late twenties. all that felling of being somewhat comfortable in my body faded, when i started to see more and more manlyness. i had the feeling that noone would ever find me beautiful again. after a few years i realised quite recently, that i’d rather be a girl. only since that moment of clarity i started to get very aware, and ‘actively’ dysphoric. still i consider this to be better than befor, when i had no sense of self and self worth. now i know. it’s not all just repression.

i had some lasersessions already, and when i looked at pictures of me from last summer i got the feeling i just didnt look at my face, esp. my beard. (i shave without a mirror since forever) but now, that i feel myself again, i can start to care. so this awareness that here and there are still hair is stressful, but i feel it to be the right train of thought.

also … wenn wir uns über eine lustige kreuzung lustig machen wollten innert der entwicklung der gem. sprachen, stünde da mEn English ganz oben auf der liste.

nur sagend.

can do.

testosterone

looking forward to dropping the T. not only for the hugs.

if you haven’t got it already: you can apply for german citizenship now. :)

no one who likes scripture would do this. no one who doens’t like scripture should get money for that.

💝

adjektivdeklination. muttersprachler*innen übersehen die sehr gerne.

mit j. schönborn “quantité négligeable” :)

who said it’s bad?

heuristically? why not? (maybe this one here does it also)