I am not a number.

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Cake day: January 16th, 2025

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  • I used to use “man” in a gender neutral way a lot. Like “hey man” or “what’s up man”. Probably a '90s kid thing. But here’s the thing, it’s not about how I feel about the word. It’s about how the person getting called that word feels about it. So I’ve made a conscious effort to stop using it. It’s really not difficult to not be a selfish asshole.

    These days, the only person I still say “hey man” to is my weed guy.



  • I think that says more about his cult than him. I know that I’m not sitting here thinking “oh poor people, if only they could break free from Trump’s stunning charisma and dashing good looks.” I’m actually sitting here thinking that there’s a lot more ignorant, illiterate, inbred, hateful fucking morons on this planet than I previously thought. And even if they all suddenly turn into Democrats, my impression of them as ignorant, illiterate, inbred, hateful fucking morons is never going to change again.


  • I think that “woke” (as it used now by right wing mouth breathers) is a combination of “PC” and “satanic”. Because from what I remember in my childhood, “satanic” was the word of choice for right wingers to use when they didn’t like something. “PC” was used in an insulting way by certain people but it was far more popular at the time to just accuse anything they didn’t like of being devil worship.

    “Woke” is the exact same shit as that. Just repackaged so that edgelord teenagers also think it’s cool to call everything “woke”. And instead of the devil, it’s the LGBTQ+ community, which is probably the same thing to them anyway. But it’s all spear headed by the same fucking people or types of people, along with their legion of useful idiots this time.


  • Oh I’m so glad to hear that Americans are starting to lose faith in Trump. What a pity that they were all tricked into thinking that the ex reality TV star who thinks Hannibal Lecter is a fine man and that offshore wind farms are killing whales in record numbers would make a good leader. If only there were signs that Trump and his posse are a bunch of lunatic psychopaths. If only Project 2025 had been released before Trump was elected for everyone to read, things might’ve been different.

    Those poor rural folk who voted for their financial and medical assistance to be gutted and are now seeing their financial and medical assistance get gutted, how awful for them. And all the manly men with hero and protector fantasies that willingly voted for the wives to be stripped of rights and to get their families deported, how awful that they were tricked so badly into being absolute fucking losers and failures as husbands and into voting for the villains of the story.

    If only there were signs and people to try and talk Americans out of it before the elections. Oh well.



  • Let me guess, by “freedom of expression” you mean allowing people to be openly racist, homophobic, transphobic and misogynistic completely free of any social consequences for their actions. While gay people, trans people and anyone else that doesn’t conform to white christian culture get vilified, victimized and their rights stripped away. What you mean is that you would really like to be able to say the n word on the internet without the mean moderator banning you but you don’t really care about freedom of expression in the real world, or things like all of the media being bought up and controlled by a handful of fascist billionaires.

    I’m just asking because usually when people make free speech and freedom of expression their personalities, they’re solely in it because they want to be able to insult and degrade groups of people without consequences and don’t really care about anything else.






  • Yeah, something that I’ve noticed about a lot of people that have strong opinions about transgender people is that it’s clear that they’ve never once taken the time to get to know anything about the people that they hate.

    I’ve spoken to one person that thought non-binary and bisexual are the same thing. And looked confused when I tried to explain the difference. And another person speaking about trans women saying “if they like men, why don’t they just be gay?” It seems to me that most people don’t differentiate between biological sex, gender and sexual attraction. And when they think they’re talking about one, they’re actually talking about another.

    It’s just plain ignorance all around. Willing ignorance. Like people with first grade maths education trying to dictate the rules of calculus.

    And I understand that no one knows everything, especially when they haven’t been exposed to certain things in their lives. Before I started spending time in certain circles, I was clueless about things that seem obvious to me now. So I get that.

    But then they need to shut the fuck up and sit back down, if they’re not planning on ever actually enlightening themselves. They need to go back to their small worlds that their small minds can handle and leave the rest of us alone.

    I don’t hate that they lack knowledge. I hate that they lack knowledge, make no effort to change that but have strong opinions about things that they know fuck all about anyway.


  • Oof. As someone that used to fall in ‘love’ hard, and usually with the wrong people, I’m not sure that I even have decent advice here but I sure as hell identify and commiserate.

    Seems you’ve already come to this conclusion yourself but I would definitely not say anything right now. Even if it’s totally innocent on your part, besides the fact that she’s already in a vulnerable state, it could also be seen as opportunistic and like you’ve been ‘waiting your turn’ all this time.

    I definitely recognise the signs of spiralling out here though. She’s consuming your thoughts and twisting you up inside and making you write long posts describing the depth of your feelings. You’re even considering giving up your identity. And in this state, you don’t think clearly or always make the best decisions. To me it felt like what I imagine being bipolar must feel like. So I wish you the best of luck keeping your head in this situation. Especially considering that now would probably be the worst time to take a break in your friendship because she probably needs the shoulder to cry on now now then ever.

    I know it’s easier said than done but I would suggest trying to reprogram your thought patterns right now. Introduce a second voice in your head that tells you to snap out of it every time you start daydreaming about her. Maybe there’s possibilities in the future but now it’s the worst possible time for this and you need to keep reminding yourself of that.

    Also, I give this advice to everyone because it’s what worked for me, but try to find something to keep you busy and distracted in the in between times when you’re not talking to her. Like start a Skyrim run or Stardew Valley run. Something that demands all of your attention and makes the hours fall away like they’re minutes. Or even a series to binge.

    Lastly, this is probably unnecessary but as someone who always felt too strongly and intensely, at this point I would like to try and practise relationship anarchy moving forward. It’s a concept that actually comes from polyamorous circles but as someone that isn’t polyamorous, I think that there are some valuable concepts and ideas in there that can apply to all relationships, whether they’re friendships or something more. And I think that they’re ideas that can be valuable to introduce into your thought process. At least just to keep reminding yourself that we’re all individuals going through our own shit and battling our own demons. And that no one owes you anything (and vice versa).

    Maybe the best course of action here would be just to let her come to you if it’s meant to be. And then that way, you won’t have to feel like a bad person here or feel like you need to do something drastic like detransition. If you make the move, you’ll always feel off about it because of the circumstances. And if you detransition, you’re no longer being the best version of you that you could be anymore and might even grow bitter and resentful about it.

    And sorry for the essay. Half of this is probably just me projecting my own shit because I see myself 10 years ago in this post.



  • I saw that series of posts, that user spammed multiple communities with the same post where all of their ‘evidence’ was just a screenshot of your profile and the fact that your profile pic is AI generated. Thankfully no one seemed to be taking the bait and it was clear to see from a mile away that this user was somehow deeply wounded by something that you said or did and lashing out with bullshit.

    Sorry that happened to you. Unfortunately there are some pieces of shit around here, even though in general this place seems pretty progressive and welcoming. Hope that doesn’t chase you away from here.