“Okay but how would you react if I killed myself? Because, like, it’s come up a lot recently. I’m looking for ways out of this, and I’m trying everything, and that feels a lot more appealing than most of the options I’m looking at that I haven’t tried like ten times this month. The isolation is really getting to me. I’m not okay.”
“I guess I would wish you had reached out, said something.”
“I have been reaching out and begging to do something, anything, all year. Let me make this explicit: I am desperate, I am Not Okay, and I need people in my life. I could use practical help, I could use human companionship, I need everything and I’d be grateful for any of it.”
“What can I do?”
“At least one of: help me find a place to live, do a book club with me, throw money at my problems, play a video game with me, send me cookies or something. Those are my top ideas, but other stuff would work too.”
3 months ago
“Hello?”
1 month ago
“Mom¹? I know you’re not dead. You’re still posting on LinkedIn². This has read reciepts.”
That was a fun few years.
¹titles changed for legibility. Not with my mother, but general idea.
“Okay but how would you react if I killed myself? Because, like, it’s come up a lot recently. I’m looking for ways out of this, and I’m trying everything, and that feels a lot more appealing than most of the options I’m looking at that I haven’t tried like ten times this month. The isolation is really getting to me. I’m not okay.”
“I guess I would wish you had reached out, said something.”
“I have been reaching out and begging to do something, anything, all year. Let me make this explicit: I am desperate, I am Not Okay, and I need people in my life. I could use practical help, I could use human companionship, I need everything and I’d be grateful for any of it.”
“What can I do?”
“At least one of: help me find a place to live, do a book club with me, throw money at my problems, play a video game with me, send me cookies or something. Those are my top ideas, but other stuff would work too.”
3 months ago
“Hello?”
1 month ago
“Mom¹? I know you’re not dead. You’re still posting on LinkedIn². This has read reciepts.”
That was a fun few years.
¹titles changed for legibility. Not with my mother, but general idea.
²not linkedin.
Cut all contact with her and vanish. See if fake friends have fake feelings or no feelings at all.
This was years ago.
Fair enough. Ill leave the comment as i believe the sentiment stands. If people dont value you, theyre not worth interacting with.
Now seduce me wuth self contained underwater breathing, you sexy sexy apparatus.
Hmm i think you replied to the wrong person, but I will try my best 👍
Your name.
They absolutely responded to the right person.
Tbh the inspiration for my name was scooby doo, i didnt draw the connection til he mentioned it